Monday, July 29, 2013

Bila Rasa Itu Menggamit Hati

Ku meniti awan yang kelabu.. Ku tempuhi lorong yang berliku.. Mencari sinar yang menerangi kegelapanku... Ku percaya nanti suatu masa... Sang suria kan menyinar jua... Membawa harapan yang menggunung.. Bersamanya....

Hahaha.. berjiwang pulak malam2 nie ye.... But that is the truth.. Aku betul2 x sabar nak habiskn lag seulan setengah aku punye probation period... I need to move on... Start a new life... Tapi itu la yang paling susah nak buat... Xpe la... Just feeling the pain... Stop running... Face it.. Face it.. Face it!!!

And stop contacting him!!!! Dia x rasa pun kehilangan ko.. So he is not suffering.. U are if u keep contacting him.. Just stop already.. For ur own good... Just be lonely.. Just be sad.. Be heart broken.. Be selfless... Be vulnerable...

Layan feeling nga lagu kat bawah la... Tapi mcm x relate sgt nga post nie.. Lantak la kn... Hehehe


Kau memang igauan ngeri dalam hidup aku!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

CeRiTa PaSaL TeLur

Haa... hari nie aku x berbuka kat ofis... very strange la balik pukul 6 but jalan seems so clear.. Clear nie bukan la langsung xde kete but clear federal highway... sape penah experience dia tau la... hahaha... And by the way, balik keje semalam aku p makan Mc D... hahaha.. dh lama mengidam tue...

Ditakdirkan la hari ini terdetik la hati aku nak memasak... Scramble egg je pun.. hahaha.. for aku punye sahur la... dh 2 hari aku x bangun sahur =( ... Ingat nak buat sandwich telur la... Tapi bila pecahkan telur tu.. WTF.. sumer dah busuk... huhuhu... memang la dh lepas expired date yg dia tulis kt bekas tue but sebelum nie xde pulak rosak mcm tue... Thinking about it pun dh buat aku rasa nak muntah.. Bau dia... Euwww....

This is 1st time la aku experience menda nie... Before this, ade la jugak aku beli telur kt Giant, dh dkt sebulan jgk lbh dr tarikh yg dia tulis but telur tue still ok... But dis one, nightmare ooo... Telur nie aku beli kat Tesco... memang low qualiti punye ke ape aku xtau... Ade gak kawan aku cite yang telur Tesco yang dia beli macam cair sgt... Ntah2 nie telur import dari China x.. Telur tiruan ke... Hohoho.. Xde hal nk berkonspirasi lak kt sini... Hahaha..

Moral of the story... jangan la ngengada beli sepapan telur 30 biji kalo memang malas nak masak... Nanti telur expired busuk... Huhuhu... Beli yang 10 je la... mahal pun xpe janji x membazir... And xde telur busuk... hehehe

 

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

BerBuKa Di OfiS

Hmm... hari nie partner aku x datang ofis.. Sian dia kete dia accident.. Macam teruk je... Sebab tue la aku x balik2 lagi nie.. Biasanye dia yang kalut ajak aku balik.. Rini since no push masa nie pun aku x gerak balik lagi... So berbuka di ofis la aku hari nie... hahaha...

Sebenarnye sama je berbuka mane2 pn... aku sebat air nga kurma je nanti... Macam skrg ni bile balik ade gk possibility aku nk g mane2 kdai beli makanan... Macam nk makan Mc D pn ade nie... hehehe... Nanti la aku update berbuka nga ape hari nie...

Monday, July 22, 2013

Favourite Drama : What If ParT 2

Kali ni aku nak sambung review What If la... Last time sampai episod 3 je kan...sekarang dah sampai episod 7.. Lama jugak ek aku stop... Dulu ingat nye nak review la cite2 lain yg best skali tapi yang nie drama yang still on going n best bagi aku.. Sumer cite2 best yang aku follow dah habis...

Episod 4 tajuk dia What If U Became A Woman... hahaha... khas untuk lelaki la nie... Story ni pasal Dickinson, one of the nurse kat wad jiwa tue.. Looney Pine kot nama dia... don't really pay attention to dat..hehehe... Dickinson nie gay... selamba badak je dia liwat si Imzan tue..Euwww!!! So as an act of tak puas ati kn Imzan tue tulis la dalam buku dia What if dis Dickinson is a woman... So dat dia dapat rasa what it feels like to helpless bile kna buli n keji nga org... Yg Dickinson nie dia dh ade bini kot..And dia layan bini dia cam hampeh...Dia pn jaga mak dia yg dh nyanyuk..slalu halusinate yg akak dia yg dh mati still ade... Sian lak kt bini Dickinson nk melayan.. Bila Dickinson slowly dh jadi mcm pmpuan, mcm2 la dia buat to change dat.. He even try nk pecahkan peti suara dia nga pisau..pergh..ngeri!! Masa dia pegi kt bilik Imzan dia terbaca ape yg Imzan tulis... So dia agk mmg keje Imzan la tue... Up to one point dia punye feature completely like a woman n mak dia ingat tu akak dia yg dh mati... Hahaha... pas2 dia pn menyamar la jd nurse pmpuan baru n pegi kt bilik Imzan mintak Imzan tukar dia balik jadi pmpuan... Masa tue la baru Imzan start to realise yg dia ade power nie...

Sambungan episod 5 Imzan mula explore dia punye ability... Start dari situ dia dah x aik ubat2 yg doktor bagi..n dia start to remember his past.. Pasal ank dia Shasha yang dia x dpt jumpa...Bini dia yg dh mati...N bapak mertua dia yang halang percintaan diorg... Rupa2nye Rashidi Ishak aka Datuk Kamal kot kalo x silap dlm cite nie is one of the main donator for Looney Pine nie..dats wh Imzan stuck kt situ..Push to be mad by all the doctors yg rawat dia.. So bile dia off the meds dia memang really sane la.. Doctor Priya yang rawat dia  pn kata CT scan dia mmg really good. So masa tue la dia start investigate what happen to Dickinson...Makcik Habsah yg jadi serial killer tue.. Dr Raihana yg masuk wad jiwa sbb dgr fikiran org n Guna attendance yg mati kt wad sana.. Yg nampak hantu tue.. Bila dah certain nga ability dia tue macam2 la test dia buat... Tls yg Benji nangis bile kna provoke.. dtg bulan la... More towards experimenting la... N dlm episod nie gk dia jmpa nga Datok Kamal...siap bersalam bagai.. Bile jmpa new doc instead of Dr Priya, Dr Chong tu inject ape ntah kt dia... Headache gle2 smpai Dr Chong blh ckp he would rather die than facing the pain... Ho3... bile Imzan sedar dia mmg xthn sakit tp dia smpt tls kt dinding What If the headache gone.. Immediately hilang... Pas2 dia request la nk nurse nye unifrom then nurse yg baik Rahman kot nama dia dtg bg bj nurse...hahaha... Runaway mission started!!! Oh ya... dia pn dh dpt jalan sbb dia tls walk if he can walk...he3 ending ep 5 dia kna kejar nga pak guard.

Episod 6... dia tls What if he is invisible... Tadaa... berjaya la dia larikan diri bile org xnmpk dia...so dia wondering around la..tengok gelagat manusia... since org x nmpk dia kn.bile terlanggar terkejut la xde pape kt blkg..he3 then dia  lpk kdai mamak, tgk sorang pmpuan kna buli nga boss dia n dia decide nk pmpuan tu jd hamba dia..automatically pmpuan tue nmpk dia n jd hamba dia... dia pn lpk kt umh dis girl la... at the same time dia praktis dia nye power...aku singkatkn story je la...pjg sgt nk cte semua... de sorang jiran dat girl nie stalk dia... Imzan try la tls mcm2 kt da tp x menjadi...yg laki nie Shamsi name dia psiko...i think serial rapist.. so bile dia try pmpuan ni tp kna halang nga kawan dia, si Shamsi nie smpai tahap bunuh kwn dat girl.. N bile ade peluang dia msk umh dat girl n try to rape her.. Imzan came to rescue.. Pas2 dia suh dat girl blk kg..KL x slmt for her... Masa dia lepak kt bwh, Shamsi nie terlanggar dia... Dia pn sj je la tls What If Shamsi got hit by a car.. and it happen.. So What If rule is 1. All the things should start with What If 2. Anything pasal Imzan akan menjadi 3. Imzan kna sentuh org yg dia nk story about.

Episod 7 What If U are Kanibal... dia buat kat Jamal Lokman kot nama mamat tu.. adik ipar dia.. Jahat gk mamat nie wat kt dia dulu.. Plant dadah kt umh dia then pggl polis... So si Jamal Lokman ni bile lapo darah dia beli la raw meat kt Giant... hehehe... Pas2 hisap darah pmpuan... Dia dh plan nga sorang cashier Giant tue tp dia lmbt dtg sbb tgk gaya bile dia kanibal nie jd cm werewolf gitu..berbulu bagai... So cashier tu balik je... Dia pn pggl secretary dia la..nk lps gian.. bile dia nk hisap drh secretary dia, minah tue mnjerit..org dtg..terbantut lagi.. so dia blk umh nk makan je sape2 yg ade.. dia serang Datok Kamal, tetiba Shasha muncul... Jamal kejar dia...dh nk terkam bdk nie bapak dia ugut nga pistol...last2 dia tembak kt kepala sbb x dgr ckp..mati la lg sorang ank dia... huhuhu...nape la x tembak kt paha ke...p aim kepala wat pe...ho3 n dlm nie gk dpt tau yg Imzan xleh reverse ape yg dia buat n ank dia dpt nmpk dia..sbb dia try nk reverse la Jamal  Lokman dr jd kanibal sbb ank dia dlm bhy sbb dk serumah... Ending for Jamal mcm x ptt j kn...tp ayt yg best mmg x ptt nasib Jamal mcm tue but seeing Datok Kamal hurt like that is very satisfying...lbh krg gitu la ayt dia... Totally agreed!!

Ok la.. nanti sambung lagi la.. Melampau panjang dh post yg nie...hahaha

A LiTTLe BiT of LoNeLiNesS

There comes a time in life...
Where u feel like no one could understand u..
No one seems to care...
No one seems to bother...
All left is their judging eyes..
Their dark hearts...
Their selfish will....
It tighten ur chest...
It breaks ur every bones..
It leaves a big scar in ur broken heart...
It make u feel lonely..
Alone in this big old world...
Trying ur best to get up...
With all ur might..
With no one's help..
U must be strong...
U must resist all the attentions...
All the bad intentions...
Stay firm.. Stay strong...
U are all u got..
Others will always fail u...
Don't add another name for that list...
Do not fail ur self!!!!!

Saturday, July 20, 2013

UpSet..TenSe...BrOkeN...

Dah lebih seminggu aku tak membebel kat sini... Aku tersangat tak suka dengan ape yang aku rasa sekarang...Seriusly... 1 months already... Just get over him la.... Damn u!!!

So as part of my recovery process, I took 3 day untuk habiskan Fast and Furious series... Best rupanye... Hahaha... And aku pn search balik all my good Japanese dram yang pernah sentuh hati aku dulu... H2.. sekarang tgh layan Zettai Kareshi.. Habis yang ni tengok Taiyo no Uta la pulak... very heart warming story... n ade part2 sedey la of course.hehehe

Aku memang nak lepaskan dia... Aku harus lepaskan dia.. Tapi kenapa hati aku sangat berat untuk itu.. Dia dah hancurkan hati aku... Selumat-lumatnye... Tapi kenapa... Sihir ape kau bagi aku nie... Kau dh bersikap kejam dengan aku.. Tapi kenapa masih sukar aku nk lepaskan kau.. Haruskah aku bersikap kejam padamu jua?

God... help me in dis recovery...

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

SaLam RaMaDhaN

Dear blog..sorry dah agak lama x update... I am having mood swing for past few days... Hope it will over soon..

Sedar x sedar dah masuk bulan Ramadhan... Wahh.. my last Ramdhan alone is during my 1st year of Uni... OMG..so long time ago... Facing 1st Ramadhan alone I hope I am not touchy mouchy la.. Life goes on beb.. It is up to u whether u wanna stay there or just keep moving as time goes by... I choose to keep moving.. Cuma momentum dia lambat sikit la.. Inertia tinggi.. Maklum la pemalas..Hahaha

Aku harap Ramadhan this year akan memberi seribu satu perubahan dalam diri aku.. Aku akan cuba menjadi hamba Allah yang terbaik.. at least the best version of myself this year.. Aku lalai sangat sebelum nie.. Mengharapkan pintu keampunan masih belum tertutup buat aku..

Selamat menunaikan puasa u alls.. May this Ramadhan bring more blessing for us. Pray for the best!!!!

Friday, July 5, 2013

Don'T STaY

Hi guys..

Today i just wanna share this video je..Actually the song yang I nak share. This is how I am feeling right now. But still don"t have the gut to send this to my ex boyfriend.. Maybe not ready to let go kot. God..give me strength for that.

Don'T STaY

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I need you to go

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don't stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I need to be alone

I don't need you any more, I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day of wasting me away
I don't need you any more, I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day of wasting me away

With no apologies

Don't stay
Don't stay

Thursday, July 4, 2013

StaRry STarRy NigHt

I have download this movie a long time ago but only manage to watch it today. There are a lot of other movies pending to watch. Hopefully I manage to watch all of it. I loved to download a lot but watch very little. =P

So this is a very heart warming story. The story about a girl, Mei who has parents that always fight with each other everyday and they really put stress in her. One time she even plan to runaway to his granpa's house in the mountain. She is standing for long hours in train station but then decide to go home. Her parent did not even notice that she's gone. Sad =(

It is on Christmas night, where choirs troupe are singing around the neighbourhood and she listen to a recoder sound played by a kid across her building. That boy caught her eyes. Next morning in school that boy is her new classmate named Jay. He is a bit cold, don't even talk to anyone. Mei followed him after school and turn out he go to stationary shop and shoplifting there. Seeing how good he is, Mei tried it too and she has so much fun.

Next day in school she go to Jay's desk and take a look at his sketch book. The painting is beautiful but some of it contain naked woman so it became an issues when others find out. Mei is feeling guilty and ask for forgiveness but being ignored by Jay. After school, Mei stumble across kids beating Jay and she help him resulting to injured her own arm. At school, Jay's mum got angry and slap him due to misunderstood that Jay hit Mei. Mei then back up the story saying Jay is actually helping her from being bullied. That is the start of their friendship.

After that incident, Mei's grandpa pass away. She felt really depressed and keep doing Starry Starry Night puzzle until finished but she lost 1 last piece. The centre part of the star. Being gloomy all day, she is not herself at school and then she goes to stationary shop to shoplift but this time around Jay is the one following her. She got busted by the shop owner but Jay come to rescue saying to her that she forgot to pay the things she takes. They then go back home and Jay ask her to help in class decoration project and of course she agreed.

Since that day, they always go to school together, doing all sort of animal origami for the contest. So sweet and lovely. But there is a boy Shawn who always try to pick a fight with Jay. Mei is sensing their parents problem ask Jay to accompany her late at night at school. It is the day before the contest end. Next day, students are gathering at their class but positively they think because of their work is the best but actually the work is destroyed. I bet by Shawn. Jay got mad and rush towards Shawn and beat him badly.

One day Mei's parent decided to get divorce and Mei can decide to live with either mum or dad. Feeling depressed she decide to runaway. He go to Jay's home and they talk a lot that night. They decide to go to Grandpa's house together. So much fun travelling together in the jungle. Resting near waterfall. Then when its time to go they choose they wrong and end up in an old church building for the night. They listen to each other that night. Jay's has an abusive father after he got into accident at work. Since then they keep running away from his dad and his father always find a way to them.

Next day they go down the hill and find Mei's grandpa's house. Bring back so much memory to her. At night they go to the lake and lay down in a old rowing boat waiting for mist to clear the air and see the stars. So romantic. Oh by the way they are just 13. Then Jay talk about how happy he is this few days but he has to leave because his dad already find them. But Mei is not responding due to high fever. They are walking in the rain last night before reaching the old church.

Jay run in a rush while holding Mei on his back towards the house. That's when he saw the beautiful Starry Night. That night is their last moment together. In Mei's dream she saw Jay is leaving and the puzzle shattered. Same as their parents puzzle, shattered. Nothing can be done. Then she met her grandpa and hugged. When she wakes up, her mum is by her side. Her parent is still divorced. But she lead a happy life even without Jay. She never saw Jay ever after that summer. But one day she received a letter and inside there is her missing Starry Starry Night puzzle. The words really touch my heart. " EVERYTHING PASSES. BUT BEFORE LETTING GO HOLD ON AS TIGHT AS YOU CAN"

Years later in Paris during Christmas, Mei is with her new sister. Her mum  remarried and moved to Paris.
While they walking home they pass by a puzzle store and it caught the young girl eyes about all the puzzle is missing 1 piece. They enter the shop and all of the puzzle there is missing 1 centre piece. As Mei walking, she saw Starry Starry Night puzzle with the same missing piece as her puzzle years before. Then the owner come and say Merry Christmas and Mei's eyes flooded with tears. You can guess it right. Sweet ending. Watch it. Won't regret it. If you need the link for download u may request personally.

Here also some screenshot from the movie.

This is the decoration contest made by Jay & Mei. Nice rite?

Waiting for stars to come out.. 

Here comes the star..

Jay is running while holding Mei
Starry Starry Night Puzzle





Monday, July 1, 2013

Post Di PaGi Hari

Haish...for past 2 weeks memang bermasalah tido aku.. Maklum la.. Hidup pn bermasalah kan... Tadi kul 4 terjaga sampai sekarang aku xleh tido.. Adoii...esok pagi keje nie...

So aku nak membebel ape ye pagi nie... Aku sebenarnya sangat suka menjahit. Ever since aku kecik lagi memang suka bertukang n menjahit. But kat rumah aku xde mesin jahit. Bila masuk sekolah menengah aku dipaksa amik kemahiran manipulatif tambahan. Cikgu x kasi amik eknomi rumah tangga. Maklum la aku all girl school. Lagi ramai yg layak amik ERT dari aku nie. Alasan cikgu sebab aku x pandai guna mesin jahit. Sedey =(

Sekarang I would like to pursue my dream again. Aku nak mula menjahit balik.. Aku dah beli mesin jahit setelah sekian lama  berangan. Sekarang aku baru start the projek nga baju anak anak sedara aku. Nanti ade masa aku upload the finished product ek.. Yang puas hati bajud girls la. Yang boy sorang tue susah la.. Baju budak laki kan... hmm...xpe.. next post la gmbr2 di ek.. if ade yg interested aku blh share dia pnye cara... aku style agak2 pnye person j...hahaha